A Million Notes To Myself

I see you, yes I know you are there and one day I will share you with the world. All versions, the grateful me, the angry me, the sad me, the healing me, the confused me, and my most favorite,

The Happy Me❤️

Let’s face it, we’re not perfect in fact we are perfectly imperfect. We build and we grow everyday it’s amazing the human things we do.

We can go from sobbing, to motivating ourselves to get up and make a change in a split second. I don’t know minds but I think I know my mine or so I try?

So maybe this is why I got a million notes to myself. Sometimes when I’m angry I say to myself “I’m gonna write this #%^* down so I can remember, so when I try to give in and be nice I’ll remember”.

Ummmmmm yeah right! I don’t have it in me to hold grudges, I love to love, I love to be happy and so I just let things go hoping either one of the ones involved will learn from this moment and grow and let go of karmic patterns.

Life is full of many many moments so I guess it’s best we stay present, pick our battles wisely and keep being honest with ourselves knowing that happiness is real but so is all the other stuff. So validate it all no matter what but always choose to be the better version of yourself.

We got this! ❤ much love!

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The Introverted Hermit

“The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.” -Albert Einstein

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Ever have those days when all you want to do is sit in silence? You don’t want to watch TV, you don’t want to hear music, you don’t want to be on your phone or around anyone you just want to sit in complete silence and figure out your next step?

That right there I like to call contemplation but yet I wonder if that feeling is often mistaken for depression, you know due to withdrawal and the isolation. It’s easy to find yourself in that place and say “Damn I think I’m lonely” or “Damn I think I’m sad” and yeah maybe you(we) are but then again you got to realize how important it is to stop, feel and accept whatever is surfacing or going on within because really that’s where all the magic begins. Creativity is a form of expression just as art is a form of emotion and most times both are channeled within the silence of your mind. So, maybe you had a tough month, a tough year or simply just a tough day but whichever it may be just know that the answers are often found within that silence, not within distraction. No matter how hard to try to hide from it.

As the years go by I value my alone time more than I ever thought I would. I choose my circle cautiously and wisely. Don’t get me wrong I enjoy company but I’ve spent so much time trying to figure myself out, trying to regain my energy, releasing the ones that don’t belong to me which believe it or not can take years to do! So, to finally become one with my healing and with my truth as an individual. Honestly, I’m not willing to jeopardize all of it just to simply fit in or be normal so to say or to live up to what others expect of me.

Like the saying goes “You came into this world alone, you’re gonna leave this world alone” so, trying to find yourself in a crowd is pretty irrelevant; especially when we face life alone, at least 75% of the time you do. So with that, I realized how important you are to yourself, and decided that I will no longer give up my well-being for things or people who simply don’t serve my highest good. Those words itself maybe don’t mean much but the experience certainly does. I think we should be happy on our own terms. We may try to express who we are to the world but no one in this world knows you or your needs better than you.

To be honest there are so many versions of yourself that linger out there in other people’s mind because it all depends on how they interpret your presence, or your existence based on their life. So why should you spend so much time trying to be better for everyone else and not take the time to be better for yourself?

So tell me why are so many people afraid to be alone? Why don’t we ever face ourselves, or listen to our hearts when life becomes uncomfortable? We are soooooo full of sympathy and forgiveness when it comes to others but why don’t we treat ourselves with the same respect? Why do we give others our time, but we don’t do the same for ourselves? and the moment we decide to make that change and give ourselves attention and listen while we act on what we’re feeling whether that be good or bad; we are then called “Selfish, Negative, Emotional, Sensitive, Cold, Weak”, Do any of these sound familiar? We give, but do we get back? (Self-Love…hint hint hint)

It’s you, and Divine who sees what goes on behind closed doors, who feel the weight of your heart, who see the scars and the wounds deep within your soul. These things go way beyond words, way beyond expression which is why most times only you, divine and that silence will understand. So tell me where do you stand? When will you stop to build with yourself, to heal that relationship with yourself, with the divine. When will you take the time to fall in love with yourself?

When will you silence that chatter in your mind? It’s time we put our foot down, look fear in the eye, open our hearts to the unknown and allow ourselves to discover the levels of beauty we hold within the world of the infinite that lays deep within our hearts, within our minds, within our soul. Only YOU can take YOU there!

As always sending you all much much love and light! ♥

Who am I? Who are you?

I am who I am without the fancy clothes, you are who you are when you discard the superficial aka the EGO. It’s not the contribution to society that makes one unconscious, it’s the selfless and impulsive choices that one makes because they choose to do the obvious. What is the obvious? Is obvious a trend? How can you rationalize when you won’t even go within.

We do but never question, we say and never think. My life matches my frequency, you are what you believe. We chase the paper but never see the maze, we save dreams for later and choose to play the game. What if dreams were reality and the game was just perception and you believed this projection and so you stopped looking for the exit.

“Mute The Ego.” -Yedismind

When it’s time to quit your job.

“I officially broke up with my 9 to 5. I didn’t want to, I NEEDED to.” -Yedismind


Quitting your job is never an easy thing to do, especially when you have bills to pay. Ask the average joe and they will tell you how unrealistic you are for thinking that your dreams will actually bring home the bacon, considering you don’t really have a legitimate plan, not one that looks good on paper anyway. But let me tell you I waited many years, many years too long for the right moment, for the right plan, for the right reasons. I spent countless of hours researching the best way to make this transition and each day I found myself more and more anxious and unhappy with my career. I felt like I wasn’t being true to myself, and even though the signs were clear, and I was being pushed out of several jobs, I would ignore them and convinced myself to stay put and try to shift my perspective.

I would TRY to engage more, change my to-do lists, come in earlier, leave later to try to eliminate any extra work that may have had an effect on my performance. I even thought maybe I needed to focus on my fitness to have more energy. I thought maybe I need to be more positive, see the good in my situation, be grateful for my job and the salary I did bring home. Even after all the effort, it all just felt meaningless, I felt lost and I felt inauthentic. Overall I found myself in a repeating cycle, feeling unappreciated, overworked and miserably hidden.

It’s interesting to look back and see something reoccur over and over, even when you change the people, change the location, change the job and yet the lesson never changes. For me, this is one of those lessons I had to learn the hard way. It not that I wasn’t doing the right things, I just wasn’t doing enough for myself, I had all my eggs in one basket, a basket that didn’t even belong to me. Each day I felt as if something kept tugging at my soul and would just ignore the signs and I waited until that very last minute, I had reached my breaking point.

On my last days of work, I literally felt suffocated and burnt out it was so bad it caused a panic attack and in that moment I could hear divine-universe speaking to me in a way that could not be ignored, not this time. What it said to me was, “You are being pushed out of these places for a reason, for a greater purpose and I will not let you settle and I will not let you fail so if you don’t make this decision on your own, you will be pushed out regardless. Don’t be afraid you know exactly what you need, what you want and how you’re going to get there.” For me, that was validation and that was the reassurance that I had been waiting for my whole entire life it seems. Along with this beautiful message, came this one…textgram_1505929084.png

Today I am present and I am embracing my journey one that I shall share with you all! I encourage you all to do the same because you are deserving, you have a purpose and you have the right to live, LIVE FEARLESSLY & PASSIONATELY! Sending you all much love and light. ♥


” Life doesn’t happen to you, it happens for you” – Jim Carrey 

Tired, a good tired.

Can you relate?
There’s this amazing energy in the air right now, that makes me feel so bold and motivated. I feel supported, I feel confident and I feel connected. So much that I finally know CLEARLY what it is that my body and my soul is asking for and I have been dedicating every second of my life to this calling. For the first time in a very long time I AM present in my now. I’ve released all fears of my past and all the worries of my future and it’s the best feeling in the world, to genuinely feel ALIVE! ♡

Standing in your truth, is never an easy thing. You go through so many experiences that tear you down and episodes that make you question your own sanity and at some point you find yourself walking alone, but like I said “YOU FIND YOURSELF, WALKING ALONE”. This is when you truly hear your own voice, in fact this is where you learn to depend on it with full trust away from distractions and expectations. You build yourself back up, and you allow yourself to be guided on a soul level and you learn to follow your heart and to mute that ego!! No questions asked. ♡

Once you break through you just want to keep growing, although your present, and your still and aware you just want to keep flowing! You feel like you had enough down time and you just want to keep going! Your tired but it’s a good tired. It’s a I’m shifting with the world, tired. 💚

Getting Passed Fear

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“Getting passed fear is the hardest part, but once you build the confidence and you dedicate yourself to you and your vision, great things will start to happen”. -Yedi 

You cant get passed fear without facing it. I’ve found that resistance brings forth a lot of complication and the more you resist, the more you hide, and the more you hide, the more work you allow to pile up. This goes for spiritual work and physical work. The main thing to know here is that when there’s fear there is a blockage, so by knowing this, we start to recognize fear once it presents itself, which then makes it easier to go within to clear it out. This concept alone has helped me shift into a higher vibration. It’s allowed me to see life through the eyes of creation, self-love, and possibility and no longer through the eyes of fear and limitation. (You will find the exercise that helped tremendously at the bottom of this post)

Fear taught me forgiveness and it taught me to let go. I realized that I was holding on to things that hurt me beyond my soul. I was holding on to disappointment which mirrored back to me as if I was disappointing and not worthy of living a life past my traumas and failures. I think that at some point throughout our lives we have expectations which aren’t always met and we end up fighting battles that we weren’t prepared for which leaves us a bit confused and worn out. We fake a smile, we live in denial, we settle for less and convince ourselves that that’s okay, that that’s all we deserve and next thing you know you create this life you don’t even recognize and you end up working around your purpose and not towards it.

When there’s fear there’s anxiety, there’s isolation and those nerves that make your stomach churn any time you’re put in a situation that makes you feel uncomfortable. Oh, how I disliked that; your palms get sweaty, your voice in your head gets louder, you start to repeat everything you say to someone like should I have said that, am I acting right, how can I get myself out of here? Everything just seems impossible. Social gatherings were the worst for me it got to a point where I wouldn’t even look at people at the store, any human interaction just made me feel awkward. That’s when I knew there was something strange going on with me because I was never like that growing up, I was shy but always broke through.

 I lived like this for some time, as the years went by I started to notice this bitterness and a loud silence in my mind, it was like this depression that wanted to take over. I was self-aware and was still putting time into my daily practice because it was the only thing that kept me sane, but honestly at the time it didn’t feel so effective but at least I knew what was going on and the signs were clear, I just didn’t know why, or how I was going to get through. This wasn’t something I could escape or run from because it was happening within, it was with me everywhere I went. So here I am stuck dealing with this heaviness that I couldn’t handle anymore. So said to myself “enough is enough if this is rock bottom, then the only way to go is up and only I can create my happiness.”

So I decided to face whatever was going on because for me I feared the thought of not reaching my fullest potential more than fear itself. I wasn’t going to let time pass me by, I wasn’t going stop living my life because of fear. I wasn’t going to stand in the way of my own success anymore. 


So where do you start? Well, you start from the ground up literally. Tackling your fear begins with grounding yourself, and being present in the now, not what happened yesterday, or what might happen tomorrow, the right now! and you ask yourself these questions:

• What am I afraid of? • Why am I afraid? • Where in my body do I feel or hold this fear?

I want you to then take a moment to reflect on this and be honest with yourself. This is one on one with you, there’s no rush or need to hold back, just relax and allow it all to surface.

Once you have called upon this fear notice where in your being you feel this blockage. 

Now imagine that you’re surrounded with beautiful white light, know that you are protected. Then picture yourself holding a golden sword, you hold it with the greatest intention, and with so much love and value. 

When you’re ready, imagine yourself cutting the cords that attach you to this fear, or particular situation. Tell these fears, enough is enough, I release you once and for all. 

Take a deep breath and as you exhale imagine all that tension you were holding in, be released out into the universe, allowing it to be purified, and replaced with healing and love.

Visualize your connection to the divine source, feel your connection to this world and cut any cords that block your abundance. With each breath you cleanse away any debris attached to this connection, anything keeping you away from your highest and truest self.

Imagine your soul travel up a tunnel of light, this tunnel is a representation of your connection, you then hold your golden sword straight up as you make your way through and watch how effortlessly you cut and clear any remaining cords. You then feel a sense of relief, as if a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. 

You are now connected to earth’s purity and to the infinite universe, you feel a healing energy go through all the areas where you once had these cords. You now feel free, protected and energized. 

Now speak these affirmations out loud or mentally,

• I am worthy, • I am confident• I am fearless •I am deserving • I am ready to receive!  ♥ I CAN and WILL accomplish anything and everything I set my mind to!! 


Now where there was fear, there’s now confidence, where there was hate, there is love. Day by day you will begin to see the shift in your life, for you have shifted your state of mind into a higher vibration. When you see it, you believe it, when you believe it you manifest it. So remember that you matter, you are loved and you deserve a life full of happiness.  Namaste ♥    

 

Finding your way to your dreams

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Dreams are what keeps life interesting, and desire is what keeps us seeking for more. So really we are all dreamers, some more than others. But deep down inside we all KNOW what it is that we want out of our human experience. Many times our vision just gets blurry along the way but it never completely goes away. You know, that urge, that anxiety you feel deep within your soul, all the way down to your toes? That’s your true-self calling out to you, trying to get you to notice her/him again.

Why do we fear this; Why do we choose to conceal our truth? Well, I think it has a lot to do with adulthood, expectations and a logical way of thinking were taught at a very young age. Let me break it down.

  1. Childhood VS Adulthood:  When we are children we see the world so vividly, we have the ability to see our starting point (A) and our desired destination (Z) but at this time our minds have not been exposed to the rest of the letters of the alphabet so to say, (BCDEFG…etc). These letters would represent the experiences throughout our lives that shift your perspective along the way. Experiences that break you down, and build you back up, experiences that will either enlighten you or keep you in the dark, experiences that will officially change the way you viewed the world. Typically we have good influences and support throughout our childhood that will encourage you to dream big, that will tell you that you can be anything you want to be. However, something changes once you reach adulthood, these influences will then start to tell you to be “realistic” when choosing your path.
  2. Expectations: (The Paper Chase): This is the part of your life where only great things are expected of you, and time belongs to everyone and everything but yourself. You are expected to get that degree, the perfect career, perfect house, perfect car along with all the other things that fall into the category of responsibility. 8 hours here, 8 hours there and MAYBE 8 hours for yourself to sleep and do it all over again the next day. Leaving you vulnerable to getting fixed and molded because although we tell ourselves at the beginning that this is temporary, while we figure out what our dream is and how we’re going to pursue it. 90% of the time we get stuck in a routine and never set aside time for ourselves to plot and launch, you’re lucky if you even get a second to stop and reflect.
  3. Logical Thinking: When decision-making, emotions will make their presence but logic always seems to have the upper hand. Maybe we’re wired this way considering our brain works to protect us from what it thinks might be danger BUT don’t you think Danger is defined by what we are taught to fear? One of the biggest things we fear is the Unknown and anything outside of our comfort zone. Do any of these sound familiar, when you think or thought about your dreams?

  • “If you don’t pay your rent, you don’t have a roof over your head”
  • “Steady paychecks guarantee your bills to be paid” 
  • “What if you don’t make the same amount of money, doing what you love”     
  • “What if you don’t make it at all, you’ll lose everything”
  • “What will everyone think of me” 

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You see the majority of people spend their lives, hiding from their dreams, being the glue that “holds” everything together, and the doormat to their lives. When they should really be seeking their way to their desired destination. For which every single person on this planet deserves. We weren’t created to just get by, we were created to DREAM, TO LOVE, TO GROW, AND TO DISCOVER EVERYTHING that there is to know about thyself. It’s upsetting to say that there are too many beautiful souls trapped in route, trapped in the limits of their minds, afraid of what may happen if they make a sudden change.

When in reality whether you chase your dreams or not, something will eventually collapse and you get to decide whether it’s going to be in your favor or not. You must find your way to your dreams. That happy place you go to in your mind is real, it’s there waiting for you. You just got to go within and dig a little deeper, because only you have access to the map that’s going to get you there. You must channel that inner child, and allow yourself to be guided by heart, it’ll teach you lessons but it’ll never fail you.

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We often get nostalgic when we think about those times when we were young, expressive and free. Those times when time itself felt like it was non-existent. Perhaps our souls weren’t exposed to the multiple realities of society but regardless of what society wants you to be, you CAN still be everything and anything YOU want to be. You CAN live a fulfilling life that’s not defined by what others expect of you. You CAN manifest that vision, that was given to you and only you.

Break free from limits, break free and just be! Don’t be afraid to be yourself, don’t be afraid to follow your dreams! Life is like climbing a mountain, you run into those obstacles that make you feel like you won’t make it and you know there’s no turning back. You fear the thought of falling but when you keep pushing yourself up, you then realize you’re at the top and the world is yours. Nostalgia will quickly fade away because you’re no longer living in the past, you’re living in the now and enjoying your precious present moment. You got this!

Much Love & Light to you all! ♥

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