A Million Notes To Myself

I see you, yes I know you are there and one day I will share you with the world. All versions, the grateful me, the angry me, the sad me, the healing me, the confused me, and my most favorite,

The Happy Me❤️

Let’s face it, we’re not perfect in fact we are perfectly imperfect. We build and we grow everyday it’s amazing the human things we do.

We can go from sobbing, to motivating ourselves to get up and make a change in a split second. I don’t know minds but I think I know my mine or so I try?

So maybe this is why I got a million notes to myself. Sometimes when I’m angry I say to myself “I’m gonna write this #%^* down so I can remember, so when I try to give in and be nice I’ll remember”.

Ummmmmm yeah right! I don’t have it in me to hold grudges, I love to love, I love to be happy and so I just let things go hoping either one of the ones involved will learn from this moment and grow and let go of karmic patterns.

Life is full of many many moments so I guess it’s best we stay present, pick our battles wisely and keep being honest with ourselves knowing that happiness is real but so is all the other stuff. So validate it all no matter what but always choose to be the better version of yourself.

We got this! ❤ much love!

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The Introverted Hermit

“The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.” -Albert Einstein

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Ever have those days when all you want to do is sit in silence? You don’t want to watch TV, you don’t want to hear music, you don’t want to be on your phone or around anyone you just want to sit in complete silence and figure out your next step?

That right there I like to call contemplation but yet I wonder if that feeling is often mistaken for depression, you know due to withdrawal and the isolation. It’s easy to find yourself in that place and say “Damn I think I’m lonely” or “Damn I think I’m sad” and yeah maybe you(we) are but then again you got to realize how important it is to stop, feel and accept whatever is surfacing or going on within because really that’s where all the magic begins. Creativity is a form of expression just as art is a form of emotion and most times both are channeled within the silence of your mind. So, maybe you had a tough month, a tough year or simply just a tough day but whichever it may be just know that the answers are often found within that silence, not within distraction. No matter how hard to try to hide from it.

As the years go by I value my alone time more than I ever thought I would. I choose my circle cautiously and wisely. Don’t get me wrong I enjoy company but I’ve spent so much time trying to figure myself out, trying to regain my energy, releasing the ones that don’t belong to me which believe it or not can take years to do! So, to finally become one with my healing and with my truth as an individual. Honestly, I’m not willing to jeopardize all of it just to simply fit in or be normal so to say or to live up to what others expect of me.

Like the saying goes “You came into this world alone, you’re gonna leave this world alone” so, trying to find yourself in a crowd is pretty irrelevant; especially when we face life alone, at least 75% of the time you do. So with that, I realized how important you are to yourself, and decided that I will no longer give up my well-being for things or people who simply don’t serve my highest good. Those words itself maybe don’t mean much but the experience certainly does. I think we should be happy on our own terms. We may try to express who we are to the world but no one in this world knows you or your needs better than you.

To be honest there are so many versions of yourself that linger out there in other people’s mind because it all depends on how they interpret your presence, or your existence based on their life. So why should you spend so much time trying to be better for everyone else and not take the time to be better for yourself?

So tell me why are so many people afraid to be alone? Why don’t we ever face ourselves, or listen to our hearts when life becomes uncomfortable? We are soooooo full of sympathy and forgiveness when it comes to others but why don’t we treat ourselves with the same respect? Why do we give others our time, but we don’t do the same for ourselves? and the moment we decide to make that change and give ourselves attention and listen while we act on what we’re feeling whether that be good or bad; we are then called “Selfish, Negative, Emotional, Sensitive, Cold, Weak”, Do any of these sound familiar? We give, but do we get back? (Self-Love…hint hint hint)

It’s you, and Divine who sees what goes on behind closed doors, who feel the weight of your heart, who see the scars and the wounds deep within your soul. These things go way beyond words, way beyond expression which is why most times only you, divine and that silence will understand. So tell me where do you stand? When will you stop to build with yourself, to heal that relationship with yourself, with the divine. When will you take the time to fall in love with yourself?

When will you silence that chatter in your mind? It’s time we put our foot down, look fear in the eye, open our hearts to the unknown and allow ourselves to discover the levels of beauty we hold within the world of the infinite that lays deep within our hearts, within our minds, within our soul. Only YOU can take YOU there!

As always sending you all much much love and light! ♥

Tired, a good tired.

Can you relate?
There’s this amazing energy in the air right now, that makes me feel so bold and motivated. I feel supported, I feel confident and I feel connected. So much that I finally know CLEARLY what it is that my body and my soul is asking for and I have been dedicating every second of my life to this calling. For the first time in a very long time I AM present in my now. I’ve released all fears of my past and all the worries of my future and it’s the best feeling in the world, to genuinely feel ALIVE! ♡

Standing in your truth, is never an easy thing. You go through so many experiences that tear you down and episodes that make you question your own sanity and at some point you find yourself walking alone, but like I said “YOU FIND YOURSELF, WALKING ALONE”. This is when you truly hear your own voice, in fact this is where you learn to depend on it with full trust away from distractions and expectations. You build yourself back up, and you allow yourself to be guided on a soul level and you learn to follow your heart and to mute that ego!! No questions asked. ♡

Once you break through you just want to keep growing, although your present, and your still and aware you just want to keep flowing! You feel like you had enough down time and you just want to keep going! Your tired but it’s a good tired. It’s a I’m shifting with the world, tired. 💚

Getting Passed Fear

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“Getting passed fear is the hardest part, but once you build the confidence and you dedicate yourself to you and your vision, great things will start to happen”. -Yedi 

You cant get passed fear without facing it. I’ve found that resistance brings forth a lot of complication and the more you resist, the more you hide, and the more you hide, the more work you allow to pile up. This goes for spiritual work and physical work. The main thing to know here is that when there’s fear there is a blockage, so by knowing this, we start to recognize fear once it presents itself, which then makes it easier to go within to clear it out. This concept alone has helped me shift into a higher vibration. It’s allowed me to see life through the eyes of creation, self-love, and possibility and no longer through the eyes of fear and limitation. (You will find the exercise that helped tremendously at the bottom of this post)

Fear taught me forgiveness and it taught me to let go. I realized that I was holding on to things that hurt me beyond my soul. I was holding on to disappointment which mirrored back to me as if I was disappointing and not worthy of living a life past my traumas and failures. I think that at some point throughout our lives we have expectations which aren’t always met and we end up fighting battles that we weren’t prepared for which leaves us a bit confused and worn out. We fake a smile, we live in denial, we settle for less and convince ourselves that that’s okay, that that’s all we deserve and next thing you know you create this life you don’t even recognize and you end up working around your purpose and not towards it.

When there’s fear there’s anxiety, there’s isolation and those nerves that make your stomach churn any time you’re put in a situation that makes you feel uncomfortable. Oh, how I disliked that; your palms get sweaty, your voice in your head gets louder, you start to repeat everything you say to someone like should I have said that, am I acting right, how can I get myself out of here? Everything just seems impossible. Social gatherings were the worst for me it got to a point where I wouldn’t even look at people at the store, any human interaction just made me feel awkward. That’s when I knew there was something strange going on with me because I was never like that growing up, I was shy but always broke through.

 I lived like this for some time, as the years went by I started to notice this bitterness and a loud silence in my mind, it was like this depression that wanted to take over. I was self-aware and was still putting time into my daily practice because it was the only thing that kept me sane, but honestly at the time it didn’t feel so effective but at least I knew what was going on and the signs were clear, I just didn’t know why, or how I was going to get through. This wasn’t something I could escape or run from because it was happening within, it was with me everywhere I went. So here I am stuck dealing with this heaviness that I couldn’t handle anymore. So said to myself “enough is enough if this is rock bottom, then the only way to go is up and only I can create my happiness.”

So I decided to face whatever was going on because for me I feared the thought of not reaching my fullest potential more than fear itself. I wasn’t going to let time pass me by, I wasn’t going stop living my life because of fear. I wasn’t going to stand in the way of my own success anymore. 


So where do you start? Well, you start from the ground up literally. Tackling your fear begins with grounding yourself, and being present in the now, not what happened yesterday, or what might happen tomorrow, the right now! and you ask yourself these questions:

• What am I afraid of? • Why am I afraid? • Where in my body do I feel or hold this fear?

I want you to then take a moment to reflect on this and be honest with yourself. This is one on one with you, there’s no rush or need to hold back, just relax and allow it all to surface.

Once you have called upon this fear notice where in your being you feel this blockage. 

Now imagine that you’re surrounded with beautiful white light, know that you are protected. Then picture yourself holding a golden sword, you hold it with the greatest intention, and with so much love and value. 

When you’re ready, imagine yourself cutting the cords that attach you to this fear, or particular situation. Tell these fears, enough is enough, I release you once and for all. 

Take a deep breath and as you exhale imagine all that tension you were holding in, be released out into the universe, allowing it to be purified, and replaced with healing and love.

Visualize your connection to the divine source, feel your connection to this world and cut any cords that block your abundance. With each breath you cleanse away any debris attached to this connection, anything keeping you away from your highest and truest self.

Imagine your soul travel up a tunnel of light, this tunnel is a representation of your connection, you then hold your golden sword straight up as you make your way through and watch how effortlessly you cut and clear any remaining cords. You then feel a sense of relief, as if a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. 

You are now connected to earth’s purity and to the infinite universe, you feel a healing energy go through all the areas where you once had these cords. You now feel free, protected and energized. 

Now speak these affirmations out loud or mentally,

• I am worthy, • I am confident• I am fearless •I am deserving • I am ready to receive!  ♥ I CAN and WILL accomplish anything and everything I set my mind to!! 


Now where there was fear, there’s now confidence, where there was hate, there is love. Day by day you will begin to see the shift in your life, for you have shifted your state of mind into a higher vibration. When you see it, you believe it, when you believe it you manifest it. So remember that you matter, you are loved and you deserve a life full of happiness.  Namaste ♥    

 

RHYME SOMETHING SO DIVINE

Rhyme another passion of mine, where the words and the feels connect perfectly in your mind. Creativity, a spontaneous energy, closets to Divine which brings out the best in me. Is she a rapper or a poet, a writer or a blogger, a little bit of each she has passion and she owns it. Where is she going? Where ever she’s not stuck, her soul is like the waves she has to keep it flowing. Daily Prompt said to rhyme, man am I thankful, sparked something crazy in my mind, I’m seeing life from a different angle. The best by far, I think I found myself again, somewhere amongst the stars. ♥

Much Love!

 

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What’s on your mind?

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I love when you find yourself in a place with such positive vibes. You realize that maybe your not having a bad day after all, and maybe life isn’t that bad and maybe there is more people like you, with the same intention. It’s just a matter of changing your environment or changing your routine. You got to get out there and find those great vibes! Find those great experiences and have those uplifting conversations because isolation can get quite lonely sometimes, and it can make you feel stagnant. A simple genuine smile can turn your whole day around! So go out there and exist and when you’re ready to recharge, go back to that place we all love the most. HOME❤ #JustAThought

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