“The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.” -Albert Einstein
Ever have those days when all you want to do is sit in silence? You don’t want to watch TV, you don’t want to hear music, you don’t want to be on your phone or around anyone you just want to sit in complete silence and figure out your next step?
That right there I like to call contemplation but yet I wonder if that feeling is often mistaken for depression, you know due to withdrawal and the isolation. It’s easy to find yourself in that place and say “Damn I think I’m lonely” or “Damn I think I’m sad” and yeah maybe you(we) are but then again you got to realize how important it is to stop, feel and accept whatever is surfacing or going on within because really that’s where all the magic begins. Creativity is a form of expression just as art is a form of emotion and most times both are channeled within the silence of your mind. So, maybe you had a tough month, a tough year or simply just a tough day but whichever it may be just know that the answers are often found within that silence, not within distraction. No matter how hard to try to hide from it.
As the years go by I value my alone time more than I ever thought I would. I choose my circle cautiously and wisely. Don’t get me wrong I enjoy company but I’ve spent so much time trying to figure myself out, trying to regain my energy, releasing the ones that don’t belong to me which believe it or not can take years to do! So, to finally become one with my healing and with my truth as an individual. Honestly, I’m not willing to jeopardize all of it just to simply fit in or be normal so to say or to live up to what others expect of me.
Like the saying goes “You came into this world alone, you’re gonna leave this world alone” so, trying to find yourself in a crowd is pretty irrelevant; especially when we face life alone, at least 75% of the time you do. So with that, I realized how important you are to yourself, and decided that I will no longer give up my well-being for things or people who simply don’t serve my highest good. Those words itself maybe don’t mean much but the experience certainly does. I think we should be happy on our own terms. We may try to express who we are to the world but no one in this world knows you or your needs better than you.
To be honest there are so many versions of yourself that linger out there in other people’s mind because it all depends on how they interpret your presence, or your existence based on their life. So why should you spend so much time trying to be better for everyone else and not take the time to be better for yourself?
So tell me why are so many people afraid to be alone? Why don’t we ever face ourselves, or listen to our hearts when life becomes uncomfortable? We are soooooo full of sympathy and forgiveness when it comes to others but why don’t we treat ourselves with the same respect? Why do we give others our time, but we don’t do the same for ourselves? and the moment we decide to make that change and give ourselves attention and listen while we act on what we’re feeling whether that be good or bad; we are then called “Selfish, Negative, Emotional, Sensitive, Cold, Weak”, Do any of these sound familiar? We give, but do we get back? (Self-Love…hint hint hint)
It’s you, and Divine who sees what goes on behind closed doors, who feel the weight of your heart, who see the scars and the wounds deep within your soul. These things go way beyond words, way beyond expression which is why most times only you, divine and that silence will understand. So tell me where do you stand? When will you stop to build with yourself, to heal that relationship with yourself, with the divine. When will you take the time to fall in love with yourself?
When will you silence that chatter in your mind? It’s time we put our foot down, look fear in the eye, open our hearts to the unknown and allow ourselves to discover the levels of beauty we hold within the world of the infinite that lays deep within our hearts, within our minds, within our soul. Only YOU can take YOU there!
As always sending you all much much love and light! ♥