Tired, a good tired.

Can you relate?
There’s this amazing energy in the air right now, that makes me feel so bold and motivated. I feel supported, I feel confident and I feel connected. So much that I finally know CLEARLY what it is that my body and my soul is asking for and I have been dedicating every second of my life to this calling. For the first time in a very long time I AM present in my now. I’ve released all fears of my past and all the worries of my future and it’s the best feeling in the world, to genuinely feel ALIVE! ♡

Standing in your truth, is never an easy thing. You go through so many experiences that tear you down and episodes that make you question your own sanity and at some point you find yourself walking alone, but like I said “YOU FIND YOURSELF, WALKING ALONE”. This is when you truly hear your own voice, in fact this is where you learn to depend on it with full trust away from distractions and expectations. You build yourself back up, and you allow yourself to be guided on a soul level and you learn to follow your heart and to mute that ego!! No questions asked. ♡

Once you break through you just want to keep growing, although your present, and your still and aware you just want to keep flowing! You feel like you had enough down time and you just want to keep going! Your tired but it’s a good tired. It’s a I’m shifting with the world, tired. 💚

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Getting Passed Fear

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“Getting passed fear is the hardest part, but once you build the confidence and you dedicate yourself to you and your vision, great things will start to happen”. -Yedi 

You cant get passed fear without facing it. I’ve found that resistance brings forth a lot of complication and the more you resist, the more you hide, and the more you hide, the more work you allow to pile up. This goes for spiritual work and physical work. The main thing to know here is that when there’s fear there is a blockage, so by knowing this, we start to recognize fear once it presents itself, which then makes it easier to go within to clear it out. This concept alone has helped me shift into a higher vibration. It’s allowed me to see life through the eyes of creation, self-love, and possibility and no longer through the eyes of fear and limitation. (You will find the exercise that helped tremendously at the bottom of this post)

Fear taught me forgiveness and it taught me to let go. I realized that I was holding on to things that hurt me beyond my soul. I was holding on to disappointment which mirrored back to me as if I was disappointing and not worthy of living a life past my traumas and failures. I think that at some point throughout our lives we have expectations which aren’t always met and we end up fighting battles that we weren’t prepared for which leaves us a bit confused and worn out. We fake a smile, we live in denial, we settle for less and convince ourselves that that’s okay, that that’s all we deserve and next thing you know you create this life you don’t even recognize and you end up working around your purpose and not towards it.

When there’s fear there’s anxiety, there’s isolation and those nerves that make your stomach churn any time you’re put in a situation that makes you feel uncomfortable. Oh, how I disliked that; your palms get sweaty, your voice in your head gets louder, you start to repeat everything you say to someone like should I have said that, am I acting right, how can I get myself out of here? Everything just seems impossible. Social gatherings were the worst for me it got to a point where I wouldn’t even look at people at the store, any human interaction just made me feel awkward. That’s when I knew there was something strange going on with me because I was never like that growing up, I was shy but always broke through.

 I lived like this for some time, as the years went by I started to notice this bitterness and a loud silence in my mind, it was like this depression that wanted to take over. I was self-aware and was still putting time into my daily practice because it was the only thing that kept me sane, but honestly at the time it didn’t feel so effective but at least I knew what was going on and the signs were clear, I just didn’t know why, or how I was going to get through. This wasn’t something I could escape or run from because it was happening within, it was with me everywhere I went. So here I am stuck dealing with this heaviness that I couldn’t handle anymore. So said to myself “enough is enough if this is rock bottom, then the only way to go is up and only I can create my happiness.”

So I decided to face whatever was going on because for me I feared the thought of not reaching my fullest potential more than fear itself. I wasn’t going to let time pass me by, I wasn’t going stop living my life because of fear. I wasn’t going to stand in the way of my own success anymore. 


So where do you start? Well, you start from the ground up literally. Tackling your fear begins with grounding yourself, and being present in the now, not what happened yesterday, or what might happen tomorrow, the right now! and you ask yourself these questions:

• What am I afraid of? • Why am I afraid? • Where in my body do I feel or hold this fear?

I want you to then take a moment to reflect on this and be honest with yourself. This is one on one with you, there’s no rush or need to hold back, just relax and allow it all to surface.

Once you have called upon this fear notice where in your being you feel this blockage. 

Now imagine that you’re surrounded with beautiful white light, know that you are protected. Then picture yourself holding a golden sword, you hold it with the greatest intention, and with so much love and value. 

When you’re ready, imagine yourself cutting the cords that attach you to this fear, or particular situation. Tell these fears, enough is enough, I release you once and for all. 

Take a deep breath and as you exhale imagine all that tension you were holding in, be released out into the universe, allowing it to be purified, and replaced with healing and love.

Visualize your connection to the divine source, feel your connection to this world and cut any cords that block your abundance. With each breath you cleanse away any debris attached to this connection, anything keeping you away from your highest and truest self.

Imagine your soul travel up a tunnel of light, this tunnel is a representation of your connection, you then hold your golden sword straight up as you make your way through and watch how effortlessly you cut and clear any remaining cords. You then feel a sense of relief, as if a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. 

You are now connected to earth’s purity and to the infinite universe, you feel a healing energy go through all the areas where you once had these cords. You now feel free, protected and energized. 

Now speak these affirmations out loud or mentally,

• I am worthy, • I am confident• I am fearless •I am deserving • I am ready to receive!  ♥ I CAN and WILL accomplish anything and everything I set my mind to!! 


Now where there was fear, there’s now confidence, where there was hate, there is love. Day by day you will begin to see the shift in your life, for you have shifted your state of mind into a higher vibration. When you see it, you believe it, when you believe it you manifest it. So remember that you matter, you are loved and you deserve a life full of happiness.  Namaste ♥    

 

A Lightworker’s Mission

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They say before we incarnate we pick our journey, we pick our parents and we pick the struggles we are going to face in order to build our knowledge, to better serve humanity. Either we learn new things or we remember things we have learned in the past. Dejavus specifically are linked back to this concept and for me, this seems to be a true reality. I’ve always felt like I’ve lived many many many lifetimes before, there’s just this sense of familiarity everywhere I go, and they’re specific places that trigger the same Deja Vu over and over again, identically. I know that these things are often ignored, or concealed by scientific explanations but I think life goes far beyond what our minds can grasp, far beyond what our eyes can see.

We feel the air, but we can’t see it, we see the stars but they’re light years away and yet we know its there. Why do we believe that Air is Air, and Stars are Stars? Is it because we’re taught its existence or is it our natural instinct? I use these as just examples, in no way am I saying they aren’t real. What I’m saying is that if these things are real and we can’t see or touch them, then why can’t the other things we aren’t taught to be real, be real, you get me?

I’ve always had the ability to see things for more than what they seem to be, maybe it’s empathy, or maybe they are intact memories. When I was small, I remember thinking to myself,


I’ve lived before, and I completed my cycle, I learned everything there was to learn, I advanced to a world far beyond earth, but I had to come back, I had to help humanity remember, I have to assist with ascension so that finally they can find world peace and we can reach oneness.” 


Till this day I know that’s my mission, and that’s why I’m here. Now this may sound crazy, but I know it’s real and I know I’m sane. Many times I get trapped in the functions of society, and get caught up in lower vibrations and tend to forget that I know my way, and all I have to do is stay in alignment with my higher self. I can feel it in my soul, and I know my truth just like I know my name is Yedi Cardenas. I’m only 22, but my soul feels old, my soul feels tired. Sometimes I got to look in the mirror just to make sure that I’m in the right body, just to make sure that I’m aging accordingly.

When I remember my mission, the discomfort I feel from the struggles I face simply fades away, and the dark clouds I thought we’re hovering over me quickly disappear, almost like I had been imagining them all along. When you remember that you’re living by choice and not by force, there’s this energy that arises, and it uplifts you immediately, it heals all wounds, it releases all fears, you remember who you are, and why you’re here. Everything seems to fall back into place. The chaos is no longer obstructive, you see it but you are not it. You feel it but you are not blocked by it. You then become radiant with light just as you intended.

Don’t ever believe that time is against you for it does not exist, don’t ever believe that your work here is done because you never know when your gonna make a difference. May all your intentions be pure, be love and be aligned with all the greatest things of above, may you always be the best you and may you find reassurance when you feel like you can’t get through. I send you all Much Much Love & Light! I know that silence in your mind can sometimes get so loud, but just remember, you are not alone and you just got to keep on keeping on because each day we get closer and closer to 🌏✌💞…<3.

 

LOVE♥

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Love is pure, love is beautiful, love is life. Love is patient, love is accepting, love is unconditional. We all understand love, we all seek love, love is our core essence. Love comes in all shapes and sizes, but there’s a special kind of love that we all desire the most. The kind of love that we all fight for, the one that many fear the most “The romantic kind of love.”

This kind of love is a special one, one that has taken over my entire being. A love felt deep within my soul, deep within my veins. Me with out love is me with out life. I’m not afraid to feel the intensity of love, the good and the bad. I’m afraid of the thought of not feeling anything at all. What saddens me is the thought of love becoming extinct.

Love is not perfect, love makes mistakes, love gets tired, love needs restoring. Love is patience, love is learning and love needs understanding. A lot is expected from love, and sometimes love can’t be everything we need it to be but love is love. Love is sometimes quiet and in its silence, it is forgotten but maybe love does respond but no one really listens. Love is not fear, but sometimes fear is louder than love.

There’s no doubt that life will get in the way of love, but it’s up to us to keep love alive, it’s up to us to give love time. Love doesn’t always go away, sometimes it’s us that gives up on love. Love is not easy, but it’s worth it, love is strength and love is value. We have to understand that love will change just like we do, but love is not limited to one fall, you can find love again, no matter what season you’re in.

When you feel empty

“Your soul is like a car it needs maintenance to keep it at its best” -Yedi Cardenas

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Many times I have found myself with an empty glass, extremely empty so empty that if I were a car with no oil, no gas, and no antifreeze , I would have broken down, and exploded a long time ago. It’s amazing how much our minds can’t take, yet we keep driving and pushing ourselves and no one takes the time to inspect us to make sure we’re running smoothly. It just doesn’t work like that. You just got to take matters into your own hands, DIY to the fullest. As positive as I strive to be, I do have those days where I feel like I’m slipping away, slipping away into this silence because there’s no way to physically show the world that you don’t have anymore to give, that maybe just for one day you need some assistance and if your like me, you have a hard time asking for help because in their eyes

“You’re okay, and you got this”

90% of the time, I do got this! But that 10% sure does get the best of me and my advise to those, when going through your 10%.

Don’t be hard on yourself, take a few moments to send yourself love, breathe and remember that this will soon pass and tomorrow will be another day. Take a moment to meditate, and reflect on all the good things about your life and about yourself, because even if others cant hear you, and can’t see your pain, there is a God, and there is light at the end of the tunnel. Go to that beautiful quiet place, where nothing negative exists, where everything is possible, where you are loved unconditionally, and accepted for who you are, go there…and restore yourself with the best kind of love…Self-Divine Love!

Surround yourself with Love and Light and remember that you are special, you are needed! and when your ready come back and conquer another day…❤

RHYME SOMETHING SO DIVINE

Rhyme another passion of mine, where the words and the feels connect perfectly in your mind. Creativity, a spontaneous energy, closets to Divine which brings out the best in me. Is she a rapper or a poet, a writer or a blogger, a little bit of each she has passion and she owns it. Where is she going? Where ever she’s not stuck, her soul is like the waves she has to keep it flowing. Daily Prompt said to rhyme, man am I thankful, sparked something crazy in my mind, I’m seeing life from a different angle. The best by far, I think I found myself again, somewhere amongst the stars. ♥

Much Love!

 

via Daily Prompt: Rhyme

Finding your way to your dreams

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Dreams are what keeps life interesting, and desire is what keeps us seeking for more. So really we are all dreamers, some more than others. But deep down inside we all KNOW what it is that we want out of our human experience. Many times our vision just gets blurry along the way but it never completely goes away. You know, that urge, that anxiety you feel deep within your soul, all the way down to your toes? That’s your true-self calling out to you, trying to get you to notice her/him again.

Why do we fear this; Why do we choose to conceal our truth? Well, I think it has a lot to do with adulthood, expectations and a logical way of thinking were taught at a very young age. Let me break it down.

  1. Childhood VS Adulthood:  When we are children we see the world so vividly, we have the ability to see our starting point (A) and our desired destination (Z) but at this time our minds have not been exposed to the rest of the letters of the alphabet so to say, (BCDEFG…etc). These letters would represent the experiences throughout our lives that shift your perspective along the way. Experiences that break you down, and build you back up, experiences that will either enlighten you or keep you in the dark, experiences that will officially change the way you viewed the world. Typically we have good influences and support throughout our childhood that will encourage you to dream big, that will tell you that you can be anything you want to be. However, something changes once you reach adulthood, these influences will then start to tell you to be “realistic” when choosing your path.
  2. Expectations: (The Paper Chase): This is the part of your life where only great things are expected of you, and time belongs to everyone and everything but yourself. You are expected to get that degree, the perfect career, perfect house, perfect car along with all the other things that fall into the category of responsibility. 8 hours here, 8 hours there and MAYBE 8 hours for yourself to sleep and do it all over again the next day. Leaving you vulnerable to getting fixed and molded because although we tell ourselves at the beginning that this is temporary, while we figure out what our dream is and how we’re going to pursue it. 90% of the time we get stuck in a routine and never set aside time for ourselves to plot and launch, you’re lucky if you even get a second to stop and reflect.
  3. Logical Thinking: When decision-making, emotions will make their presence but logic always seems to have the upper hand. Maybe we’re wired this way considering our brain works to protect us from what it thinks might be danger BUT don’t you think Danger is defined by what we are taught to fear? One of the biggest things we fear is the Unknown and anything outside of our comfort zone. Do any of these sound familiar, when you think or thought about your dreams?

  • “If you don’t pay your rent, you don’t have a roof over your head”
  • “Steady paychecks guarantee your bills to be paid” 
  • “What if you don’t make the same amount of money, doing what you love”     
  • “What if you don’t make it at all, you’ll lose everything”
  • “What will everyone think of me” 

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You see the majority of people spend their lives, hiding from their dreams, being the glue that “holds” everything together, and the doormat to their lives. When they should really be seeking their way to their desired destination. For which every single person on this planet deserves. We weren’t created to just get by, we were created to DREAM, TO LOVE, TO GROW, AND TO DISCOVER EVERYTHING that there is to know about thyself. It’s upsetting to say that there are too many beautiful souls trapped in route, trapped in the limits of their minds, afraid of what may happen if they make a sudden change.

When in reality whether you chase your dreams or not, something will eventually collapse and you get to decide whether it’s going to be in your favor or not. You must find your way to your dreams. That happy place you go to in your mind is real, it’s there waiting for you. You just got to go within and dig a little deeper, because only you have access to the map that’s going to get you there. You must channel that inner child, and allow yourself to be guided by heart, it’ll teach you lessons but it’ll never fail you.

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We often get nostalgic when we think about those times when we were young, expressive and free. Those times when time itself felt like it was non-existent. Perhaps our souls weren’t exposed to the multiple realities of society but regardless of what society wants you to be, you CAN still be everything and anything YOU want to be. You CAN live a fulfilling life that’s not defined by what others expect of you. You CAN manifest that vision, that was given to you and only you.

Break free from limits, break free and just be! Don’t be afraid to be yourself, don’t be afraid to follow your dreams! Life is like climbing a mountain, you run into those obstacles that make you feel like you won’t make it and you know there’s no turning back. You fear the thought of falling but when you keep pushing yourself up, you then realize you’re at the top and the world is yours. Nostalgia will quickly fade away because you’re no longer living in the past, you’re living in the now and enjoying your precious present moment. You got this!

Much Love & Light to you all! ♥

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