Empathy or Social Anxiety

Could you imagine living in a world where nothing is expected of you, where you don’t think about the other persons thoughts and you have this ability to create with out fear. Does this place- reality exist?

They say it’s attainable if you have thick skin, but it’s vulnerability that teaches you everything about that-your world within.

My greatest strength has been my sensitivity, some call this empathy, some think it’s a form of weakness and others confuse it with anxiety but in my reality this is me.

I can write, I can dream, although it all seems so perfectly put together in my head, the words just crumble when I speak, as if I were walking backwards with the thought of trying to get ahead. -Yedismind💭

A Million Notes To Myself

I see you, yes I know you are there and one day I will share you with the world. All versions, the grateful me, the angry me, the sad me, the healing me, the confused me, and my most favorite,

The Happy Me❤️

Let’s face it, we’re not perfect in fact we are perfectly imperfect. We build and we grow everyday it’s amazing the human things we do.

We can go from sobbing, to motivating ourselves to get up and make a change in a split second. I don’t know minds but I think I know my mine or so I try?

So maybe this is why I got a million notes to myself. Sometimes when I’m angry I say to myself “I’m gonna write this #%^* down so I can remember, so when I try to give in and be nice I’ll remember”.

Ummmmmm yeah right! I don’t have it in me to hold grudges, I love to love, I love to be happy and so I just let things go hoping either one of the ones involved will learn from this moment and grow and let go of karmic patterns.

Life is full of many many moments so I guess it’s best we stay present, pick our battles wisely and keep being honest with ourselves knowing that happiness is real but so is all the other stuff. So validate it all no matter what but always choose to be the better version of yourself.

We got this! ❤ much love!

To my beautiful daughter💕

Today a year ago I found out I was pregnant with such a beautiful soul. There are no words to explain just how special you are to me princess. I thought I knew love but no what I feel each time I see you smile is something beyond me. Your presence in my life brought so much light and healing, I want to be everything you need.

I remember when we brought you home for the first time, I cried because I was so scared thinking I couldn’t possibly be enough for you but with time and patience I am learning to be the best momma to you. I thank God everyday because now I see I had to go through things just to get to you and I thank you for choosing me. I love you with my entire life! Id do everything all over again in a heart beat!

You are everything to me my sweet Sophie I promise to be your rock, with me and your daddy you will always have a home. You are our greatest blessing! We love you so much!

Thank you God! Thank you so much💗

Calling out to all Truth Seekers & Light-Workers.

Something very interesting has happened today, well actually it’s been in the works for the last couple of days it seems. I’ve had this urge to seek updated information on what’s going on energetically and I stumbled upon 2 videos today and honestly, it has left me a little confused.

Here’s why I don’t know if my soul really accepts this new information being given, to be honest, It’s been so long since I’ve actually listened to these. At the start of my journey, these videos were so limited, all my soul family and I had to rely on were our Divine, Our Guides & the Sky. When we did find these videos they would really hit home. Believe me, when I say I’m trying to have an opened mind and I’m making sure to recognize any stubbornness or any fear-based thoughts or reaction that may be surfacing.

The information on new timelines, 5D reality, new earth activation being given at-least from these videos make sense to me but not really. It seems that the new “Channels” are so different now, compared to the ones I’ve connected to retrieve messages. Maybe there is other information out there or within especially, that I need to find that makes more sense to me?

Here’s the thing, I’ve been in hibernation mode for some time and thought I’d seek out to find others in my soul family that could provide additional information for better growth and understanding because even when we are connected and have our own resources sometimes our own voice and validation can get in the way or just cloud our minds a bit. We all experience different things so that we could come back and share our knowledge to help others to grow and ascend.

So back to these videos, they mention how important it is to pay attention to alien activity and what were not being told. OK, I get this one, and I’ve been having some really crazy dreams about this too. But anyway I’ve always sought and welcomed the unknown I’ve always questioned probably more than what I should’ve to a point where I know my limit now so to say.  I’ll explain this later.

So, they talk about the moon, the planets and the sun, OK I get this too, lately I’ve been told by my guides to focus on this look a little more into my chart to better understand what’s going on with myself, and with the way I’m reflecting to those around me and to the world etc and to better understand current energy.

Now, speaking of individualized energy, it also says with this new shift & this new 5D reality activation only some people are going to experience the change. OK I also get this, I remember before the 2012 shift, we were on a mission to get everyone in line, we were doing our shadow/energy work consistently, we were channeling and spreading the message, we were drawn to many unconscious souls knowing exactly what needed to be said and done and when to move on to the next individual, we were digging into our past lives to retrieve anything that could help us, and help others to awakened to prepare for transition from 3D to 5D knowing that that was our mission here, knowing that we had already experienced everything we needed to, so that we could help as many as we could but of course it’s not all up to us. And each individual had free will, and not everyone would be awakened.

Along with this, it’s also a matter of remembering just like everyone else because we too get caught up in the mix right?

Well now how it was phrased seemed a little off to me, it says that those vibrating at a lower frequency will be left behind and or placed on suspension because they won’t be ready and they won’t be able to handle the new energy. Are they referring to those who have decided to stay in the sleeping state? or even those who are awakened and find themselves vibrating at a lower frequency. Let me tell you this happens! And I honestly question my own reality and my level of consciousness at this point because if you haven’t noticed the spiritual reality is nothing compared to what it was a few years ago, there’s a lot of phony info, a lot of trendsetters, a lot of people wanting to be so-called awakened but haven’t even done any of their shadow work and the knowledge being spread is a bunch of copy and paste and honestly a lot of it is just wishy-washy but overall my guides are always present to help me pinpoint and figure out what’s true and what’s not and I don’t think I’ve missed out on anything but considering this rejection I feel towards the information being provided I’m wondering like wait have I put myself on pause thinking that I’m gaining some type of growth from hibernating so to say.

But I also say this because they also mention how many of us have become impatient and were wanting to manifest quicker and yes you have those again that are retrieving this knowledge and aren’t using it correctly or don’t have good intentions. Something that has always happened but aside from that I think that many of us who have been working at this for so long have become exhausted and at times we do doubt our existence and our purpose because, in reality, our work here on earth is completely worth it but it is not always easy.

We’re living in a different generation, when I first began my journey and remembered the mission I had very minimal information to reference to, you didn’t see much of our truths on IG, or Facebook or on Blogs as you do now which I think is amazing, the growth is amazing but let me tell you we experienced some crazy stuff, some crazy energies, we risked A LOT, we looked freaking CRAZY 9 out of 10 times but it was our knowing and we knew exactly what needed to be done and we didn’t know how we knew this but we just did. It really wasn’t always full of light we literally faced very very dark energy that we had to push through to push out and many times it left us vulnerable and confused & we had a very limited resource here in the physical to validate our path but Thankfully, thanking DIVINE guidance we made it through.

So with that being said even we can also catch ourselves vibrating lower than we should and we forget and we get tired and we get frustrated but we check ourselves and get right back at it and of course your first year in your patient, your beyond excited you don’t know what to expect and you think it’s all light or that it has to be at least and gosh that feeling is beyond this world, you feel free and ready and it’s amazing but as you grow and remember you know that it has to be a balance.

You can’t recognize the light without experiencing the darkness but IT IS all love, that’s our core, that’s our intention. Union is what we want, and what we work so hard for I guess I’m sharing what’s on my mind and if I need to be corrected or enlightened once again I’m open to that. I guess I wonder hey am I going to miss the opening? Did I take a few steps back and I’m finding myself living in fear again considering all the things I saw but I honestly think I’ve grown, a lot especially after reuniting with my twin I’ve been doing a lot of my work behind the scenes to say. I hope to be right on track, but if I need a good checking, hey! But I hope this makes sense and hope anyone with information will comment and let me know what they think, let me know where you stand in this new era.

As always sending you all much much love and light!!! ♥

The Introverted Hermit

“The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.” -Albert Einstein

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Ever have those days when all you want to do is sit in silence? You don’t want to watch TV, you don’t want to hear music, you don’t want to be on your phone or around anyone you just want to sit in complete silence and figure out your next step?

That right there I like to call contemplation but yet I wonder if that feeling is often mistaken for depression, you know due to withdrawal and the isolation. It’s easy to find yourself in that place and say “Damn I think I’m lonely” or “Damn I think I’m sad” and yeah maybe you(we) are but then again you got to realize how important it is to stop, feel and accept whatever is surfacing or going on within because really that’s where all the magic begins. Creativity is a form of expression just as art is a form of emotion and most times both are channeled within the silence of your mind. So, maybe you had a tough month, a tough year or simply just a tough day but whichever it may be just know that the answers are often found within that silence, not within distraction. No matter how hard to try to hide from it.

As the years go by I value my alone time more than I ever thought I would. I choose my circle cautiously and wisely. Don’t get me wrong I enjoy company but I’ve spent so much time trying to figure myself out, trying to regain my energy, releasing the ones that don’t belong to me which believe it or not can take years to do! So, to finally become one with my healing and with my truth as an individual. Honestly, I’m not willing to jeopardize all of it just to simply fit in or be normal so to say or to live up to what others expect of me.

Like the saying goes “You came into this world alone, you’re gonna leave this world alone” so, trying to find yourself in a crowd is pretty irrelevant; especially when we face life alone, at least 75% of the time you do. So with that, I realized how important you are to yourself, and decided that I will no longer give up my well-being for things or people who simply don’t serve my highest good. Those words itself maybe don’t mean much but the experience certainly does. I think we should be happy on our own terms. We may try to express who we are to the world but no one in this world knows you or your needs better than you.

To be honest there are so many versions of yourself that linger out there in other people’s mind because it all depends on how they interpret your presence, or your existence based on their life. So why should you spend so much time trying to be better for everyone else and not take the time to be better for yourself?

So tell me why are so many people afraid to be alone? Why don’t we ever face ourselves, or listen to our hearts when life becomes uncomfortable? We are soooooo full of sympathy and forgiveness when it comes to others but why don’t we treat ourselves with the same respect? Why do we give others our time, but we don’t do the same for ourselves? and the moment we decide to make that change and give ourselves attention and listen while we act on what we’re feeling whether that be good or bad; we are then called “Selfish, Negative, Emotional, Sensitive, Cold, Weak”, Do any of these sound familiar? We give, but do we get back? (Self-Love…hint hint hint)

It’s you, and Divine who sees what goes on behind closed doors, who feel the weight of your heart, who see the scars and the wounds deep within your soul. These things go way beyond words, way beyond expression which is why most times only you, divine and that silence will understand. So tell me where do you stand? When will you stop to build with yourself, to heal that relationship with yourself, with the divine. When will you take the time to fall in love with yourself?

When will you silence that chatter in your mind? It’s time we put our foot down, look fear in the eye, open our hearts to the unknown and allow ourselves to discover the levels of beauty we hold within the world of the infinite that lays deep within our hearts, within our minds, within our soul. Only YOU can take YOU there!

As always sending you all much much love and light! ♥

SPIRITUALITY IS NOT A TREND

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Breaking down your reality is never an easy thing to do but it’s our duty to seek the truth! It’s our mission to guide humanity. It’s important for us to retrieve and distribute knowledge that will enlighten each and every soul we come in contact with so that one day we can all rise as one, as a whole. A Lightworker does not only or always see light. We have seen the realest form of darkness and have been defeated by it many many times but we conquer!

Our Light is our strength and we fight battles with the intention to raise our vibration not only as an individual but as a whole. The thought of World Peace, Love and Unity is what keeps us positive. It’s our dedication to this mission that makes us spiritual. Meditation keeps us safe, sane, connected and grounded because even we can sometimes lose direction and so we go within to remember. Our Crystals are our best friends, our shields and an extension of Divine Guidance as we are.

We are abundant but we have also struggled very much for standing in our truth because, at the end of the day, we are also “human.” We are not perfect, we are not a trend, we don’t pretend, this our life. Our work and our intentions are real. We feel it ALL the good and the bad. We embrace who we are & maintain our balance between ground and the stars. -Yedismind♥

Who am I? Who are you?

I am who I am without the fancy clothes, you are who you are when you discard the superficial aka the EGO. It’s not the contribution to society that makes one unconscious, it’s the selfless and impulsive choices that one makes because they choose to do the obvious. What is the obvious? Is obvious a trend? How can you rationalize when you won’t even go within.

We do but never question, we say and never think. My life matches my frequency, you are what you believe. We chase the paper but never see the maze, we save dreams for later and choose to play the game. What if dreams were reality and the game was just perception and you believed this projection and so you stopped looking for the exit.

“Mute The Ego.” -Yedismind